itskatedroke

itskatedroke:

richeincognito:

There are times when the things you do tear my heart apart. There are times when I’m so emotional I rant just to get your attention. So much I want to say to you just to keep you with me. I love you and what an amazing person you are not just because of the things you’ve done for me but the…

Dear Richard.

I’ll never know the right words. The right things to say. My thoughts are like stars that I can’t fathom into constilations. Im all over the place. Honestly I’m pretty lost pretty torn between what I am and who I am which I don’t know either of them. I look in a mirror but I don’t see myself just a girl living everyday but I’m not really living. There were alot of things we’ve done to each other. We’ve mentally and physically tore each other apart. We let the real things go and the bad things stay. We broke each other but I’ll never forget all the things that you did do for me. We may never have an always and forever we may never have a chance but while im 1000 miles away or 2 miles im always going to be here for you. That will never change.

During all the times I’m upset is because I just want to see you in my future being the one who holds my head when I’m hurting. I can’t see myself without you I hurt so much and then I get angry and don’t know what to says Dear Kate there isn’t a day that goes by not even a moment where I don’t have flashbacks when you were in my arms at my moms funeral smiling and having a good time. At that moment I felt infinite, where nothing else mattered. I never know what to say when the time to say things come so most time in sarcastic because I’m afraid of what could go wrong. I’ve made so many mistakes and yesterday I made the biggest one ever I let you leave without stopping you. And I just sat and cried and realize I was only again all over again. Depression staring me right in the face with the gun of lonely aimed at my forehead. I know I will possible never ever hear from you again but know that I am an idiot I made some mistakes that I know you’ll forgive me for later but right now you know what is best and I’m am very thankful for the time you spent with me. I still have every single picture we took on my mom’s black cellphone and they will forever be there locked away with the other memories I never want to lose. And when I truly need you I will look at those pictures of you smiling and find myself happy all over again. Kaitlyn Gayle Droke I will always have love for you. No matter how much you will hate me or never want anything to do with me. If you ever needed anything I will be here for you. I made that promise and I stand by it till the day I die. Thank you again for being a wonderful Best Friend for the longest and being a freaking awesome girlfriend the best not I have ever had. God bless you in your journeys in life.❤️ itskatedroke
itskatedroke

itskatedroke:

richeincognito:

There are times when the things you do tear my heart apart. There are times when I’m so emotional I rant just to get your attention. So much I want to say to you just to keep you with me. I love you and what an amazing person you are not just because of the things you’ve done for me but the…

Dear Richard.

I’ll never know the right words. The right things to say. My thoughts are like stars that I can’t fathom into constilations. Im all over the place. Honestly I’m pretty lost pretty torn between what I am and who I am which I don’t know either of them. I look in a mirror but I don’t see myself just a girl living everyday but I’m not really living. There were alot of things we’ve done to each other. We’ve mentally and physically tore each other apart. We let the real things go and the bad things stay. We broke each other but I’ll never forget all the things that you did do for me. We may never have an always and forever we may never have a chance but while im 1000 miles away or 2 miles im always going to be here for you. That will never change.